Being away from my father, boyfriend and my childhood friends has made me question my sexuality more openly to myself in safety. I do not have to feel threatened by my dad’s presence, or the possible responses my friends may blurt out if I accidentally confide in them. Even worse I fear hurting X – my much loved boyfriend of many years. X is the only reason I am unsure if I am a lesbian or bi or just curious, because I love him with all my heart and have for so long believed that all I want in life is a happy marriage and to bring my children up well with a nice man in a secure home: which X embodies.
Sex has never been a particularly enjoyable thing for me for many reasons, such as feeling threatened and belittled, and even though I trust X, it is probably…
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