Day 3 – How old were you when you knew? What was that like for you?
Barry: On some level I knew I was different from about the age of 8. I’m not sure I fully understood what the difference was though. It wasn’t until 1986 when I was ten and I knew what ‘gay’ was. I also pretty much knew that I had a massive crush on Elek Kisch, the Hungarian boy down the street and that because of that, I’d probably die from AIDS.
By 1988 I was going through puberty and was terrified of life. As clichéd as it sounds, I cried myself to sleep most nights and hated myself for not being one of the boys. (I always was a bit of a drama queen).
By 1989 hunched over a New Kids on the Block poster in the bathroom I was pretty certain I was gay.
Listen to Dear Me – A Letter to my 16 Year Old Self.